why

why do I have to keep on dreaming abt you

THIS HAS TO COME TO AN END

flat life

today im gonna write sumthin tat i rly feel like

pouring it out from my heart

its the first time ever tat or maybe second tat i feel

clueless on how to make my day even more colourful

in my heart it seems like everyday feel, taste and smell the

same like any other day i just do not know how

much more can i make tis life on earth even more interesting

it feel like everyday im just doin the repeating activities tat

i have been doin all the time

goin to uni meet up wit frens hv fun wit them and suffer together wit them

assignment assignment

go back eat play cards wit my indo frens lose money

eat do hw

go facebook comment on stuff tat we can find to comment on

and of course not to forget chattin wit the girl i like :)

but then of course my mood could affect our conversation

sori abt it i rly am

not to mean tat im not interested of her anymore

just the after effect of my mood affect the way

we talk i just cant avoid it..

well what else can we do to make it more interesting

and yes i know people will say

" go clubbing"

well even tat sometimes theres not much to get from there

i guess what i really wish to hv rite now

is for "U" to be rite here beside me

but i know tat is of course quite impossible to happen

even i cant give it to u

why should u

~whysoserious~

that complicated mind of theirs

There's currently a lot of lesson that ive learnt abt myself

toward the issue of liking someone

from the way i view it now

eventhough how much u know abt handling a problem

of relationship we will never be avoid them

cuz the key idea tat problem will always happen in relationship

Like even how i see myself sumtimes tryin to fix the problem

so hard can even end up to have one eventhough there isnt any

the way i see it now is tat we will always have to be patient abt wad

is currently happening eventhough we can sense tat problem is somehow

arising it is best to wait until we get the clear picture of wad goin on

sometimes i even wonder why do i hv to be so emotional attack

and tink negatively abt somethin tat is not even wad it is

i guess wen we rly like someone tis is wen we will always be blind

no matter how much we try to open our eyes and realize it

we will still be havin the problem

maybe because the problem is just there for us to solve it

and tat is how our love is tested

i can always admit that im just afraid to lose the person i cared so much

until she might not even stand for wad i hv been behaving

i guess from the problem arise we can now understand

and apply the mindset where
"in life we will need to be able to balance them in order to have the hapi life"

tis goes the same where relationship will never be a good one

wen there is an extreme to one side

just like if u care so much for the person tis will make u

tink abt all the negative thing and make urself worry and end up doin the wrong thing

also it is not gud to not pay attention or be too carefree over wad she do

because it will end up showing tat u never actually care abt her

eventhough u tink tat u always care for

"yes" you urself do know tat u always care for her and luv her to ur heart

but she will never know what u tink

to me girls are more sensitive abt wad is goin on

even a small incident tat happen or response they will be able

to catch the meaning as they take thing more seriously

than us male

as to me i always remember that girls heart are very fragile

eventhough we see tat some of the girl tend to look tough

abt wads goin on but behind tat face is sumetimes

covering something tat is very fragile to them

i am not sayin tat us guy must always be soft towards the girls

because sometimes girls also do not like tat

but instead we must always know how we should take care of tat

soft fragile heart of the girls

many of us guys always view tat girls are very complicated in the way they tink

yes they are but there are always way to simplify and understand

tat complicated mind of theirs

it is not impossible and hard but it just require time and patience

to get there

~whysoserious~

June

well i guess i can see tat some of my fren is back in the

blogging world haha

days have pretty much gud and bad

well most of them is gud so far

only today i know tat my mid term result rly went bad

but enough of tat for me as long as everything else is doin well

my life so far is ok nuthin much have happen

just having a hapi moment tat i spend chattin wit the girl i like :)

not to mention a very hapi moment to start off the month of JUNE

wit an unexpected call from someone who i cant recognize

her voice wen the first time i heard the call

but yea unbelievable sweet voice though haha

i thought at first it will be my sis but then i tink

cant be haha (im not sayin my sis do not have a sweet voice though)

anyway gtg :)