My feeling is unstable

Thinking back of what ive used to be 

being able to write alot about my feeling in the blog last time

but one thing for sure a lot of mixed emotion have happen to me

HAPPINESS FRUSTRATION CONFUSION all that happen at one time

I just do not know how to actually see it

The concept of me am I being selfish to others

just cared abt my own feeling 

or is selfish also considered wen u cared abt how u wanna care abt a girl so much

is tat being selfish not rly considering whether they like it or not 

even if i do i just cant stop it cuz tats who i am i guess

afraid to show tat i care for u too much until sumtimes i cool down my feeling

I also never want to put it all on u but do not know that it will turn out to be tat way

not wad i wanted from the start

So what am I doing now? 

Even when i say I love you also sumtimes cuz i say it too much

they might think I am not serious about it

im confused on how to show my feeling edy

especially i am a very sensitive guy when i get jealous that easily over small thing

it is very annoying actually 

yes I am being childish but I am doing my best

my thinking always always stop me from doing sumthing lovely and caring

I do not know why I cant get over it

I always question myself am I worth it n when i ask this qs to myself

another voice say only YOU (myself) will know that

it is like i am fighting myself here 

now i am writing this because i just feel like throwing out my feeling 

I felt guilty for always wanting ur attention

this is not what a man should do

which what i am doing something abt it now

not because i do not care abt u

but in fact it is because i care for u too much....

when u see this post it might not make u hapi or tired again n im sori......

~whysoserious~ 

IM BACK AND ALIVE

It really is has been a while isn't it

well im back people :D

i realize something that i never realize way before

that is people have said im very good at using my words to create

a strong emotion towards something

i guess this is wad i can work on from now :D

sooo!!! well wads been happening with me :)

loads have happen to me :D

but the one that give the best impact is 

me attending the ASIAWORKS TRAINING :D

I met loads of people from diff background and ages

and u know what i can really blend in with them :D

interesting isnt it? haha

They make me realize and ensure me that who I am

is more than what I am now

and the strongest quality I have is using words to convey strong

meaning to other people life

that is why in one of the STRETCH that I had

was from A PRETTY BOYBAND

who care nothing but himself turn into

~~~A CUPID~~~

something that i thought can i even become one of it

well im supposed to write a letter to 3 of the people that

i feel have made alot of contribution in the journey

so and i did i wrote 3 letters in a time of 15 mins

this is because i have run out of time 

but nevertheless i never had thought that by my messages to

these three people:

1. Garie

2. Sam

3. Agnes

will ever meant alot to them it was a surprise to myself as well

i never thought i hv to kneel down in front of them

and read out that letter in front of 30 other people in the room

my heart rly pound alot but i realize that I am actually hapi

to be given this chance to send this message of mine to them

I have finally contribute to the people that i want to contribute the most to

the 3 most important people that I care about in the training

that 5 days have been a roller coaster ride to me but it rly worth it

it has slowly change me n somehow find myself back

the talent or quality that i have recently found i really want to make use out of it

for the benefit of other people and myself 

~this is who I AM~

  whysoserious