My feeling is unstable

Thinking back of what ive used to be 

being able to write alot about my feeling in the blog last time

but one thing for sure a lot of mixed emotion have happen to me

HAPPINESS FRUSTRATION CONFUSION all that happen at one time

I just do not know how to actually see it

The concept of me am I being selfish to others

just cared abt my own feeling 

or is selfish also considered wen u cared abt how u wanna care abt a girl so much

is tat being selfish not rly considering whether they like it or not 

even if i do i just cant stop it cuz tats who i am i guess

afraid to show tat i care for u too much until sumtimes i cool down my feeling

I also never want to put it all on u but do not know that it will turn out to be tat way

not wad i wanted from the start

So what am I doing now? 

Even when i say I love you also sumtimes cuz i say it too much

they might think I am not serious about it

im confused on how to show my feeling edy

especially i am a very sensitive guy when i get jealous that easily over small thing

it is very annoying actually 

yes I am being childish but I am doing my best

my thinking always always stop me from doing sumthing lovely and caring

I do not know why I cant get over it

I always question myself am I worth it n when i ask this qs to myself

another voice say only YOU (myself) will know that

it is like i am fighting myself here 

now i am writing this because i just feel like throwing out my feeling 

I felt guilty for always wanting ur attention

this is not what a man should do

which what i am doing something abt it now

not because i do not care abt u

but in fact it is because i care for u too much....

when u see this post it might not make u hapi or tired again n im sori......

~whysoserious~