My feeling is unstable

Thinking back of what ive used to be 

being able to write alot about my feeling in the blog last time

but one thing for sure a lot of mixed emotion have happen to me

HAPPINESS FRUSTRATION CONFUSION all that happen at one time

I just do not know how to actually see it

The concept of me am I being selfish to others

just cared abt my own feeling 

or is selfish also considered wen u cared abt how u wanna care abt a girl so much

is tat being selfish not rly considering whether they like it or not 

even if i do i just cant stop it cuz tats who i am i guess

afraid to show tat i care for u too much until sumtimes i cool down my feeling

I also never want to put it all on u but do not know that it will turn out to be tat way

not wad i wanted from the start

So what am I doing now? 

Even when i say I love you also sumtimes cuz i say it too much

they might think I am not serious about it

im confused on how to show my feeling edy

especially i am a very sensitive guy when i get jealous that easily over small thing

it is very annoying actually 

yes I am being childish but I am doing my best

my thinking always always stop me from doing sumthing lovely and caring

I do not know why I cant get over it

I always question myself am I worth it n when i ask this qs to myself

another voice say only YOU (myself) will know that

it is like i am fighting myself here 

now i am writing this because i just feel like throwing out my feeling 

I felt guilty for always wanting ur attention

this is not what a man should do

which what i am doing something abt it now

not because i do not care abt u

but in fact it is because i care for u too much....

when u see this post it might not make u hapi or tired again n im sori......

~whysoserious~ 

IM BACK AND ALIVE

It really is has been a while isn't it

well im back people :D

i realize something that i never realize way before

that is people have said im very good at using my words to create

a strong emotion towards something

i guess this is wad i can work on from now :D

sooo!!! well wads been happening with me :)

loads have happen to me :D

but the one that give the best impact is 

me attending the ASIAWORKS TRAINING :D

I met loads of people from diff background and ages

and u know what i can really blend in with them :D

interesting isnt it? haha

They make me realize and ensure me that who I am

is more than what I am now

and the strongest quality I have is using words to convey strong

meaning to other people life

that is why in one of the STRETCH that I had

was from A PRETTY BOYBAND

who care nothing but himself turn into

~~~A CUPID~~~

something that i thought can i even become one of it

well im supposed to write a letter to 3 of the people that

i feel have made alot of contribution in the journey

so and i did i wrote 3 letters in a time of 15 mins

this is because i have run out of time 

but nevertheless i never had thought that by my messages to

these three people:

1. Garie

2. Sam

3. Agnes

will ever meant alot to them it was a surprise to myself as well

i never thought i hv to kneel down in front of them

and read out that letter in front of 30 other people in the room

my heart rly pound alot but i realize that I am actually hapi

to be given this chance to send this message of mine to them

I have finally contribute to the people that i want to contribute the most to

the 3 most important people that I care about in the training

that 5 days have been a roller coaster ride to me but it rly worth it

it has slowly change me n somehow find myself back

the talent or quality that i have recently found i really want to make use out of it

for the benefit of other people and myself 

~this is who I AM~

  whysoserious

New fan :D

Tell u guys wad i've recently become a fan of

Lindsey Stirling :D

pro violinist

I LIKE IT :D

don't ask me why so sudden but it just hit me :D

ENJOY :D

2012

My first post in the year 2012

wad to say loads of stuff happen though since the last post

guess i havent been updating myself

wad to do no one seems to read the blog anymore

tats make me have no motivation in writing tis edy

no support how to write? haha

like i said many things have happen

1. I bought a new Blackberry haha thanx to my mum

2. Made a new bunch of frens back in Medan who apparently are my sister frens

3. I decided to change course from Business Management to Communication this have been confirmed

4. I have no more goldfish in my room

5. Received the best ever present from my die hard Liverpool fren JON

took him less than a week to send which is surprising haha

6. lost my wallet on the way back from Lake Toba

7. Nuthing much from wad i remember edy

anyway goin back to Medan again tomorrow to celebrate THE CNY :D

story of my life

its been awhile since my last post

but too bad no one miss me haiya....

well story of my life wanna say

why am i always sick whenever there is holiday

quite annoyin actually haha

well i donno wad else to write since i hvnt been in touch wit

most of my readers seriously runnin outta topic on wad to say

what to write??

haiya k lah im signin out :D

end of blogging life

Its been a very long while to end this blog of mine

And now I will want to end this blog by posting something that I have

Learned in my lesson of History and Philosophy of Science

If we only notice that our planet earth is only a point in the vast open cosmos

People might think that human being will be reborn and our earth is somehow

Will be indestructible but if we were to look at our planet in the view of the cosmos

Our planet is described we are too small on the scale of the universe

Consider that dot that’s home tats us everybody we know

everyone we love

everyone we ever heard of

every human being who ever was live out their life.

How easy is it to destroy each other, how fragile we are in this small little planet

Tat only as big as a tiny pixel in the whole picture

But it is our responsible to be kind with one another and to preserve and cherish

The only home we ever known the pale blue dot

why

why do I have to keep on dreaming abt you

THIS HAS TO COME TO AN END