Back to the blogging world

Back to the blogging world

Hi, guys it's been so long til the last blog that I've post. A lot of ups and down has happened since then. Of course ive graduated and back in my hometown. And been living here in Medan for 5 years now. I've met with a lot of interesting people. Adapting is what I have been doing all these years and honestly saying even until now im struggling with it.

Throughout all that 5 years in Medan people come and go. People who I loved and still do actually until now :p but of course moving on is a must for everyone good and benefit.

One thing for sure that I notice is the family business that I am reluctant to pursue on has now become my daily routine life that I enjoyed doing. From this business I have gained a lot of knowledge and also my weakness on myself as a whole. But this is always something to work on and learn.

The reason why I am back to this world is basically because there so many thing that I wanted share with but found no channel to share that to. As I felt that my mindset and character as a person has shaped into something that I myself has no complete control on. The reason is just because I spend so much focused on adapting to the people around me and also the environment. After all this is what life hammered you into isn't it ?

That's all for now...

cherish what u have now

It does seem to be true on the fact that as we grow older and as time past

there is not much excitement goin on in ur life anymore

compare to the past 

but of course it is not always good to dwell on the past

from here on it also show us that wen good things happen cherish them

u will never know that the next thing that they are gone from ur life

no matter how much u wanna turn back the time u just cant

people who used to be close to u and there in ur social circle

will one day move on one by one whether u like it or not

laughing together making nonsense video together it might sound 

ridicules at that moment in time but then wen u look back at it again

it in fact is the best moment of ur life. 

The crazy frens that help u to open up urself to other

they are the one who make me who i am today :D

looking back does give some moment of hapiness

Have u ever had the feeling of wanting to go back in time 

and just enjoy the moment again

well i do from what i have look back in my past

while i dun have much to do at the moment 

it does give a very enjoyable moment for u to look back at it

eventhough there are certain bitter past that we might have gone through

but by looking back at all these post that u have written in the past few years

it can sumtime fill ur loneliness moment again with the hapi one

it make u feel back that moment in time again.

people might have said " why do u even blog?"

So lifeless ah u?

YES I can say I am lifeless at the moment

rather than just sitting there without doing anything

by writting or reading ur blog post again it sure does make ur brain tink again

sumtimes u must admit that u can even read back all those

chat or messages that u have wit ur best frens or someone special to u

it sure does happen to me :D

Thank you for being there

It's again been awhile ive written or update my blog and pour out my feeling to u all

it sure does feel nostalgic doin these as this is what i love to do

back many years ago pouring out what i have come across in life

recounting to u all what have happen in a day to day basis

loads of thing have happen in the past few months

good and bad 

i lose and gain things in my life

people have change that is what i have to accept first of all

it is also the most painful incident that i hv to encounter as well

there is one thing in my mind rite now that i always wanted to make a difference on

which is the thing that i have done wrong towards my fren the one fren that

who always there for me during my up and downs

especially during the down i have learn many things from him when the first time

i reached sunway but there is one incident that might have changed the whole

relationship of ours which i regretted alot..

coming to realize what i hv gain and loss i actually have lose big 

this is the one person who i make a stupid decision to part away from

that have make me tink so much of why i have done so

but of course again theres nuthing i can change anything from it

like what my fren have said "what have happen happened"

true enough theres nuthing i can do abt it.

just look forward for the best in the near future that i was given the 

opportunity to clear up the mess.

i just want to thank them for making me realize all these mistake

without it i cannot think as wide as i am now

making me realize to cherish what have been there for u

people and frens who is always there for u

and i clearly know who they are :)

My feeling is unstable

Thinking back of what ive used to be 

being able to write alot about my feeling in the blog last time

but one thing for sure a lot of mixed emotion have happen to me

HAPPINESS FRUSTRATION CONFUSION all that happen at one time

I just do not know how to actually see it

The concept of me am I being selfish to others

just cared abt my own feeling 

or is selfish also considered wen u cared abt how u wanna care abt a girl so much

is tat being selfish not rly considering whether they like it or not 

even if i do i just cant stop it cuz tats who i am i guess

afraid to show tat i care for u too much until sumtimes i cool down my feeling

I also never want to put it all on u but do not know that it will turn out to be tat way

not wad i wanted from the start

So what am I doing now? 

Even when i say I love you also sumtimes cuz i say it too much

they might think I am not serious about it

im confused on how to show my feeling edy

especially i am a very sensitive guy when i get jealous that easily over small thing

it is very annoying actually 

yes I am being childish but I am doing my best

my thinking always always stop me from doing sumthing lovely and caring

I do not know why I cant get over it

I always question myself am I worth it n when i ask this qs to myself

another voice say only YOU (myself) will know that

it is like i am fighting myself here 

now i am writing this because i just feel like throwing out my feeling 

I felt guilty for always wanting ur attention

this is not what a man should do

which what i am doing something abt it now

not because i do not care abt u

but in fact it is because i care for u too much....

when u see this post it might not make u hapi or tired again n im sori......

~whysoserious~ 

IM BACK AND ALIVE

It really is has been a while isn't it

well im back people :D

i realize something that i never realize way before

that is people have said im very good at using my words to create

a strong emotion towards something

i guess this is wad i can work on from now :D

sooo!!! well wads been happening with me :)

loads have happen to me :D

but the one that give the best impact is 

me attending the ASIAWORKS TRAINING :D

I met loads of people from diff background and ages

and u know what i can really blend in with them :D

interesting isnt it? haha

They make me realize and ensure me that who I am

is more than what I am now

and the strongest quality I have is using words to convey strong

meaning to other people life

that is why in one of the STRETCH that I had

was from A PRETTY BOYBAND

who care nothing but himself turn into

~~~A CUPID~~~

something that i thought can i even become one of it

well im supposed to write a letter to 3 of the people that

i feel have made alot of contribution in the journey

so and i did i wrote 3 letters in a time of 15 mins

this is because i have run out of time 

but nevertheless i never had thought that by my messages to

these three people:

1. Garie

2. Sam

3. Agnes

will ever meant alot to them it was a surprise to myself as well

i never thought i hv to kneel down in front of them

and read out that letter in front of 30 other people in the room

my heart rly pound alot but i realize that I am actually hapi

to be given this chance to send this message of mine to them

I have finally contribute to the people that i want to contribute the most to

the 3 most important people that I care about in the training

that 5 days have been a roller coaster ride to me but it rly worth it

it has slowly change me n somehow find myself back

the talent or quality that i have recently found i really want to make use out of it

for the benefit of other people and myself 

~this is who I AM~

  whysoserious

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